13日，今天很烦，很烦恼的早晨
昨天沉睡在我的疲劳中，不愿觉醒
根本没看到妹的短信
因为我根本没拿起手机看过一眼
直到，我在公司要silent手机才察觉
一切已经太迟了，那一刻我还在犹疑
到底我要resit吗？
就这样挣扎了大半天，很烦恼
最终我还是乖乖地请了半天假期
爸爸说要来载我去，这份好意我不能拒绝
来到tarc，一点也不熟悉，很陌生
赶到了sot office,又要赶去admin block
一路上我说了很多我很久没用的english
要renew ID原来还要Passport size照片
随随便便找了一幅墙用N73自拍了就print
print出来的效果让我感觉很自恋
其实真正感觉到的，是很自卑
我发梦也没想到，我竟然感觉有点委屈
只是多问几句有关开学弟弟学费的折扣而已
结果却遭人白眼，说resit的人并没有那么好的待遇
一身邋遢地赶到学院，我就知道有这样的下场
最后，我也终算成功递上了我的resit form
但以后呢，我真的可以考上吗？
那一百零吉可能根本就不应该投资在那里
其实我一直都有放弃的感觉，但却没人支持我
对我来说，那张文凭也许好比一张废纸而已
因为我根本就不会用它了，只会增加我的负担
我只想现在的我可以简单一点，好过一点
让我有多点的时间拥有自己的空间与想法
我不想再拖累任何东西了，我只想一直做下去
直到，一切安定，然后我可以做回我自己
越是简单的梦想，过程却越复杂
white eyes is given by small people,dun care them,and..d cert is damn important,trust me.jia you..
ReplyDeleteno matter wat.. u have spend 2 yrs to get d cert.. now u just need 1 step to get it..
ReplyDeleteu cant foresee ur future. holding a cert is better than nth at all..
beh was right, u adi put so much on it, now left 1 step then u can get it.. Please walk 1 more step, if cant walk, we will walk with u, just call 017-2040369... i duno can i help u on ur studies onot, but i think i can listen ur joke de, at least i wll laugh XD
ReplyDeletehey fai...they all are right..although I not in malaysia now...don't give up..you know..cheak foong told me last time...he wrote in jacinta's card also...'there's no people failed in life...only people give up in life'...so don't give up easily...the cert is not a rubbish..in reality...ya it is bette r when finding job or do others thing...but the true..it is a proof of your hardwork..prove that you din give up..your 努力 is there...
ReplyDeleteDon't care bout those people that look down on you..you will have a better future..see they very wai meh...just sit in the counter only mah...ta ma de...really hate this kind of people...
And friends always by your side...we always here...
Don't give up your dream...fight for your dream...maybe many people don't believe this...but i believe it...NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE..I always believe...